Today I am 51 years old. Next year, I want to weigh 70 pounds less and be celebrating in Hawaii. That is my goal and there is a lot of work in front of me. No plans for my birthday really. Andrew has soccer practice and we might go out to dinner with Dana and Delaney and then watch Hidden Figures. Ever since Delaney read Rocket Girls, she has been wanting to see this movie.
There is one week of the Trump presidency gone by and Dana is still super, super mad. I cannot change the election but I feel I am to blame because I did not vote for Hillary. One more vote for Hillary from the state of Oregon would not have changed the election. It does not matter though. It is something that I will not understand, how important a woman president was/is for Dana, and I would guess women of her age. I viewed as a self serving criminal. I have not seen such hatred toward a politician or anyone that Dana has despised before.
So, I do not feel stuck at 51, but I am always dreaming of fancier, more important jobs out there for me. However, the upheaval that changing jobs would cause to the family is just too much. I see my role as secure, reliable job that lets Dänä and the kids take the risks, gain new experiences, and broaden their horizons. My role is cheerleader or coach for the next year. I just have to remember that the direction that everyone is heading may not be my chosen path. I just have to help them along.
I had a good birthday, a simple birthday, and I was happy. I got a nice new shirt that I can wear when it gets sunny. I just need to make a roadmap for 2017
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